operation

how should I say?

It feels awful, nothing like usual. I know he will answer my call, but something depressing is holding me back. Even so my fingers dial the numbers, my lips wouldn't know what to say? A sense of longing which lingers around the atmosphere, almost everything seems to annoy me. I am glad the relationship ended on a good note, no fights no quarrels. It was oddly peaceful, so much so that I am still trying to accept it as a fact.

I attended Gerlaine's farewell dinner once again. Seems like I have attended too many of her farewell gathering/dinner. My dear, take care of yourself well, be kind to all (: I hope I am still visiting you next year after I graduate, I may have to find another partner if he finds a girlfriend soon. haha. Otherwise, I'll drag Kwee Ann along with me still and tour the mini continent :D I hope you do fine and carve out a future you've always wanted, be a vet, so I can bring My Dog to you when I need help & I can consult for FREE right right right? I know you love me, and love My Dog too.

Don't worry about me mistreating My Dog, cus you know I wont have the heart to hurt the cute lil' thing. All the big talk about slapping my dog if it annoys me is really bullshit. I'd love My Dog. It is, after all, what I get as a form of consolation from my mom. I appreciate things which are hard to come by, this, I am talking about a broken heart.


Bring back an ang moh boyflen and teach him Singlish (:

/Even though laughter surrounds me, I still feel empty inside

forever love, until the fall.